Bone Cracking?

Everytime I bend and lean forwards to reach for something my hip cracks, and then I struggle to stand straight again.

From this I know it’s arthritis making the bones grind together, better known as: Crepitus
sometimes called crepitation (krep-i-tay-shen), describes any grinding, creaking, cracking, grating, crunching, or popping that occurs when moving a joint. People can experience crepitus at any age, but it becomes more common as people get older.

So life is getting pretty hard and miserable. And I’ll be counting down time til I can get onto the list.

I fear it could be a long long time, so I need to find something else to distract myself in the meantime, and focus on other things. Otherwise I will fall into a vicious cycle of misery and pain.

I rang the hospital out of sheer desperation and honestly I felt worse, found out that all services have stopped, consultants redeployed elsewhere and to ring back in March, and hopefully then they can reschedule me.

Just knowing there’s no one to see, no one to guide or give hope to me is immensely soul crushing. It’s going to feel like a long long 6 weeks til I can ring again.

Phone Consulation?

All week or so it’s been a game of will I get my call or not? Seeing many surgeries getting cancelled all over again, hits home hard.

The crushing blow of that glimmer of hope extinguishing, is cruel especially at the last minute.

So this week I’ve busied myself each day to distract from that dreaded call to cancel me. As the days ticked on, my spark of hope was igniting again, could it be still going ahead??

So for this week I’ve been trying to distract myself with the new physio exercises and all important anterior pelvic tilt ones too.

And at the last evening before the Call, a letter is posted at 6.20pm and its the NHS it’s what I feared, it’s cancelled.

No clue how long for, no rescheduled date, No Hope!!!!