Happy Birthday to me xx


Today was my Birthday and i also had my x-ray and consultation appointment today. We had to be there by 9.30am which for anyone that knows me, will know thats like asking me to go somewhere in the middle of the night! Gosh that was an early one for me, as we would have to set off at 8am earliest. Not so bad when it’s just yourself to get ready, but the kids are horrendous and so hard to get out in time. Once out and proud of ourselves we had to hit total traffic!

Needed to avoid the motorway due to an accident and major delays and go through all the little towns instead. Which was more pleasant that first thought and at least we were constantly driving rather than at a standstill.
The Hospital totally overlooked all the 9.30am appointments and let the others up til 10am go in front of us! The bloody cheek of it, i asked have you forgot me? They said yes we have! So we all got left with a delay of over an hour and a half. Should of stayed in bed longer. Once i got in the Nurses were abrupt and plain rude in places, while others were lovely and polite. Once up in the x-ray department i was congratulated for my Birthday by the techs there and the nurses which i thought was very sweet. X-rays were over in a blink of an eye, and it was back down to see the registrar.
The Registrar was pleasant and did the normal ROM tests and asked me to walk without any aids for him to see how i’d progressed. He said it’s time to go without a stick, and actually asked why i had it with me, Then said in the next breath if your out for a long time, or walking far, take it with you. Duh! Thats why i have it today.
He told me the bone is around 85% healed and i can now go on the waiting list to have the screws and plates removed, which is around 3 to 4 months long, so it shouldn’t get in the way of Holiday dates and the Summer at least. We mentioned that i’m off the warfarin now and would i be given a full course of treatment to prevent a clot happening again, and they said i should be called in before my surgery date to have the leg scanned to see how big the clot is, is it dangerous and is it likely i’ll get another one, so i’m very happy with that. There is no way i would ever have surgery now, without securing the full course of injections, or aspirin for myself.
Town was hot and busy and numerous times i tripped or had my stick kicked out from under me. And i’ve noticed that the people that give way to you are ones that have sticks or crutches themselves!! Leg very very sore from landing a little heavy on it, when i tripped today and with the kicked stick as well, it proper gave me some hell today. I was tired and cranky so we left after a few hours, as i couldn’t bear the shops any longer. But we managed to stop off at Ikea for a hotdog and ice cream on the way home which is gorgeous!! (Wish i could live on them)
Well i’m off to enjoy the rest of my day, and rest up as much as possible for a few days now. Happy healing Hippy Girls xx )0(

Recovery is such a long road to travel


Recovery is such a long road to travel

I don’t think when i was signing up for this surgery, ever realised how long is long! I knew damn well it would be 18 months from start to finish, but to actually understand what that entails is different. I knew i would be weaker and less active, but somehow did not understand the pain and frustration with it all. I’m great at home, i can workout each day for 30 mins and do my physio 3 times a day, but i can’t seem to progress from that.
Everytime i go out shopping or for a day out and i take my walking stick, it flours me. Like that wears me out faster than any workout’s i do. The backache and general tiredness makes me realise i’m not as good as i think i am. I also tripped over twice in 2 days, mainly over myself. I didn’t actually fall over more just landed funny on my leg (put it down heavier than i would of liked) And boy does it bring tears to you eyes, thus proving to me i’m weaker and not as fixed as i think i am.
Which makes me wonder how and why the Doctor’s i see to get my medical certs for so i can claim my ESA, why they think that 10 weeks will cover me, when i’ve yet to even get a date for my next surgery (screws took out surgery) and i’m still not painfree, and i use a walking stick. What job would actually want me? When i can hardly stand for an hour, but can’t sit too long either? When there are so many people looking for jobs that can actually do the work too, i’m not sure they would want me?! But the funniest thing the Doctor said to me was, well if you get better in that 10 wks, then let us know so we can adjust your claim? As if i’m going to get that much better in 10 wks!!
So why is it so hard to get these Medical certs, surely it should be a walk in the park for me? Whereas the whole process is hell from start to finish and i’m left feeling ashamed and embarrassed that i can’t work, and feel guilty. I had this surgery so i could become a member of society again, and work again, Nothing would make me happier to be honest. So i question, why should i feel guilty and ashamed??

On a happier note, it’s only 6 weeks until my Holiday and i’m roughly losing 1lb a week, so it’s slow and steady, but the food changes i’ve made are for life rather than a diet, so it should be easier to maintain. The Physio lady as asked me to start going out with out my walking stick, but to be honest i’m just not that brave yet, especially when it’s raining. I struggle enough to stay out for an hour with a stick, but i will try it on a drier day. I’ve dropped my doses of Trama*dol as well, so i’m on Co-Codamol mainly which is not too bad. So it’s all good here when people leave me alone to recover. Lol

Happy Healing fellow Hippy Guys xx

Working out hard


Still working out hard and i’ve managed to lose 6lbs in 5 weeks, so i’m very happy with that, although i’m hoping for more until i reach my goal weight. I’m taking it very slowly as it’s not worth undermining the surgery and recovery process, for the sake of a few pounds. I’ve certainly changed my diet which has been the success out of all of this, so much so, that when i do eat white bread or potatoes i’v noticed my stomach feels bloated and cramped up, later on in the night. Shocking that food can make you feel so tired and sore and unmotivated. Sure i’ve always heard that it does, but to actually experience it was another things all together. So i’m convinced that junk food has far more reaching consequences than you just getting fatter and unhealthier, but also dumbs you down, makes you more compliant. Your too tired to fight back, too tired to work at your best, too tired to be bothered.

Walking has improved tenfold and i’m so excited to say that. I’ve started to manage full days out with a walking stick, whereas before i needed a crutch for definite. So the legs are getting stronger, and the physio is working well. The only thing that worries me now is that the surgery leg is loads stronger than the other leg, so i’ve decided to do physio on both sides now to try and build it up. But i’m thinking it will be worth mentioning to O’Hara when i see him on the 27th July and see what he has too say about it. Shame the appointment is on my birthday though! least it’s in Birmingham so maybe a can get a shopping trip out of it as well to make it worth my while lol xx
Happy healing Hippy Friends xx )0(

Still Physio and trying to lose weight


Things are actually going really well, the physio is hard for sure but i’ve started to enjoy it much more. And i’ve walked with NO limp and NO Walking sticks and crutches, admittedly it hurt like hell and i could only do 2 steps before collapsing lol

I’ve lost 4lbs it total now in 3 weeks so i’m very happy with that. It’s been a hard slog but so worth it, when i have to squeeze into my bikini. As i don’t want to be looking like a waddling duck with heaps of flab on show as well, Thank god for maxi dresses too, as i can wear my stockings and no-one will know lol.
Been focusing on selling my jewellery lately, so that has helped me loads in my recovery. It’s really took my mind off hips, and pain and dvt’s too. So a real blessing xx
Happy Healing guys xx